Everyone has a bad habit or two. It can be something like picking your nose, biting hangnails, or smoking ciggies. But I believe we have emotional bad habits too, I know emotions, emotions, this girl keeps rambling about emotions! Hey I'm an emotional girl, as you can tell from this blog but this is my outlet or else I'll be drowning my sorrows with a bottle of tequila at some random karaoke bar by now. Anyway, I've noticed that I have a bad habit of not letting go. I'm a clinger. Haha, not that kind of clinger but then again...nevermind. What I'm trying to say is that I don't know how to let go of "what could have been." Once my mind starts going down "should of, could of if only" lane it eventually rice rocket drifts into a highway to hell. (haha enjoyed all those driving puns?) Uncreatively speaking, I keep replaying all the good times I had with so and so that I start to think that I've must have done something wrong, that I was the culprit to the failing relationship. Then I start to over analyze and obsess everything, like every relationship I ever had in my life. It's so lame. I don't know why my head does that from time to time. However, I'm learning to counter all these annoying thoughts. I reaffirm myself that I am a good person, and all these a**holes aren't really what they are cracked up to be in the first place. They were created in Marlenaland, which is another bad habit of mine like romanticizing but I've already covered that topic in a previous entry. Basically, letting go is one hard emotional drug to kick. I mean the reason why we won't let go of things is because we think we get something out of it. In most of my cases it's not something great at all because it eventually leads to false ideas of who am I. I guess that's a realization that I need to keep reminding myself. I'm getting there Reader, trust me.
My Other Bad Habits:
Talking waaay too loud
Instagram
Texting and Driving
picking my nose
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